This is my story into and out of breast augmentation. here goes....
I originally wanted to have a lift but my husband was frightened by the scarring so I agreed to look into implants.
I told my PS that I wanted to be "fuller and perkier"... my exact words. She told me that I could not get that without implants. I then said I wouldn't be opposed to implants as long as I wasn't more than a small C cup. she indicated to me that if I didn't go to a small D cup I would still need a lift.
I asked what the difference was between a small C and a small D and her exact words were "splitting hairs". this indicated to me that it wasn't much of a difference. Since I couldn't really picture how truly large either size would be on my body I asked about sizers and pictures and she had neither for me.
I have to admit that I rushed into this decision. I wanted to have them done by my Florida trip in April so time was a constraint. I should have shopped around when she didn't have the answers for me that I was looking for but she was so confident and sure of herself that I began to trust her. We consulted with her for 2 hours during which time she was more and more forceful with what she thought were my "problems". She told me that I had massive sagging and I ended up leaving there thinking I would die if I didn't get the implants.
I scheduled for 2 weeks later. My surgery was 3/19/03.
To my doctor's credit I will admit that I rushed into it and chose her based on the following things so I cannot blame her completely for the way I turned out:
1. She was very self-assured and that made me feel that her opinion was based in fact and therefore should not be questioned... after all, she is the surgeon and should know best.
2. The time constraints that I put on it.
3. She was the only consult I went on.
When I woke up I was huge and in a tremendous amount of pain. I just kept thinking how huge I was but considering I was in such pain I didn't really give it serious thought until 2 days later when the bandages were removed. I told her and the nurse from the beginning that I was way too big and they just attributed it to swelling and said it will go down.
I cried for 3 weeks everyday after the surgery. I began researching to get them out after about week 2. I hated them based solely on size. I indicated my hatred for them on each post-op visit and my doctor continued to brush it off and post-op blues and told me that she wouldn't even consider removing them for at least 6 months. I was so depressed and couldn't believe I had done such a stupid thing to myself. how could I have spent $6,500 of our money on something so selfish and stupid? how idiotic could I have been to allow someone who didn't have my best interest at heart operate on me?!?
My husband told me we could get them removed in the 6 months if I still wanted them removed. This calmed me down enough that the crying stopped and I could move on through my life.
At 4 months I was still not liking them but I was getting used to them. over the summer I got quite used to them and really hoped that I would grow to love them. I remained optimistic until winter hit when I realized that I couldn't wear anything that wasn't tight fitting or I would look dumpy, top heavy, and fat.
I had thought about this throughout summer but it was never an issue because I wore tanks with built-in bras each and every day of it.
Then when I hit about 10 months my muscles must have decided that it was time to loosen up and my implants got very mobile. sleeping in any position became very uncomfortable because the implants were quite heavy (1 pound each) and would flop into my armpits on my back, they were too big for me to sleep on my stomach without pain, and laying on my side caused pain because of the top breast resting on the bottom breast. It was a nightmare! so I slept bad for the past few months. the only time I was ever comfortable was in a built-in tank top. I wore them under everything... t-shirts... everything.
I used to really enjoy working out at the gym and that all but stopped once I got these babies. I could no longer do any upper body workouts without constant fear of harming something or getting capsular contracture. I could no longer do aerobic activities or run. I was not happy with these things and I was simply trying to convince myself that I was.
Being that I still felt enormous (in addition to all the other above mentioned issues) I decided that enough was enough. I was never going to love them and all the negative things were outweighing the positive things.
I returned to my PS and told her that I wanted them removed. She examined me again and told me that I would look much much worse, much much more saggy, much much flatter, and that she had to tell me these things so that I was prepared. She told me that I could have adherence of the tissues causing me to be deformed. She told me she would have to remove the capsule completely and that it will cause more trauma to my body and could possible remove breast tissue.
During the consultation she kept skirting around the issue of price. I asked several times and didn't like the way she dodged the question. I also brought up that I didn't want to be this size in the first place and her exact words response was "yes you did.". I was dumbfounded that she could say such a thing to me and I decided right then and there that I didn't trust her to operate on me again.
At the end of the consultation I asked about price again and she said that the nurse would call the hospital and find out how much the room and anesthesia would be and then come back and talk to me. I got the impression that my PS wasn't going to charge me a fee for her services and that actually made me feel ok about her but still nervous about trusting her to operate. the nurse came back in and told me that Dr. Kramer's fee was $3,200 and that the total would come to $4,150 which included that fee.
I couldn't believe it.
That day I went home and started looking around for another doctor. I found Dr. Korkos on implantinfo's doctor search. I called around, explained my situation to the receptionists, who would then transfer me to the nurses, who would then give me ball park figures before I decided to consult and spend the consult money. Dr. Korkos is the only doctor out of about 10-15 that I called who actually got on the phone and talked to me for about 20 minutes. I immediately felt that he had my best interest at heart. he listened to my and was compassionate and kind. I scheduled the consult and loved him.
The surgery for removal was 2/17/04. the cost of the surgery was $3,225.00.
He went in through the same crease incision. he drained the implants. he removed the implants. He scored the capsule so it would heal shut against itself. it wasn't thick so he didn't think it needed to be removed as my body would absorb it in time. He sewed me up and I was done. the entire staff was wonderful. I am so very pleased with my experience there!
I had no iodine on me after the surgery because they were that thorough in cleansing me after the surgery. I remember having quite a bit of iodine on my sides and lower belly after the first surgery. So either Dr. Korkos' staff is exceptional in their care or Dr. Kramer's staff is neglectful... I'm not sure which is accurate.
I hope this answered your questions. I will never get implants again. I like how my body looks proportionate and streamlined now. I don't feel self-conscious and I feel that I look normal now when I didn't with the implants. If you have any further questions please do not hesitate to ask. I would love for women to have all sides of this issue before undergoing the surgery. I don't think that enough of us who just don't like them talk about it. I just didn't like them and they weren't for me. I don't feel that if I had gone smaller it would have been any different.
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