My story is probably like most of you. The reason I share it is because no one ever told me some of what I experienced and I hear a lot of women went through some of the same things. I have never had breasts except when I nursed. I have three beautiful children and I am 31 happily married for 13 years. My husband had nothing to do with my decision other than I felt like if he saw cleavage, I wanted it to be mine.
I remember in junior high, I never wanted to get undressed in front of other people because I was embarrassed that I didn't have anything. I never developed like all the women in my family. They all have big breasts. I never thought I would ever consider surgery. I just put that one in the old never box. But then I realized it was the only way I would ever have what I really wanted. This was a BIG dream, a really big steep for me I started to watch a personal story and waited for the stories to come on that talked about breast augmentation.
I thought about this for about 8 months. I felt like I could handle the pain it just being put to sleep that scared me. I got on line and started looking up everything I could about the subject. A friend of mine used to be a nurse so I asked her about how safe it was and she told me she used to work for a plastic surgeon who was great and his name was Dr. Bruner. I called and made an appointment just to see if it was something I really would consider. I knew from the start I wanted to do it, I just had to over come my fears. My husband was fine with it he just wanted me to be happy. I talked with everyone I knew who had this done. Even the lady who scheduled the appointments for my Dr.
Everyone said it was no big deal and it was an easy procedure. I really believed them and thought I was worried for know reason. And even if it was painful they all said it was worth it. So I looked on the computer and read all that I could about it. Nicole’s web site answered a lot of my questions and helped me more that I could ever say. I read all the stories and journals of all the women who did this and knew if I ever did it I would also share my story. I got pictures from magazines and of Nicole web site and showed my Dr. exactly what I wanted.
I decided to be a C cup. People told me I would not want to be any smaller. I wanted it also to be worth all the money it was going to cost me to. My Dr. said the only complaint he ever heard was that the patient wished they would have gone bigger. I said that would never be me. A small C cup big B cup was enough. I thought just having something was enough. I scheduled my appointment not knowing if I would chicken out.
I did all I was supposed to do before the surgery date and dreamed about it every night. I was very nervous and all I thought about day and night was boobs. I just wanted to be on the other side and have it all be over. This was more than just boobs. This was in my eyes becoming a real woman. Feeling better about myself and what I could give my husband. Not to mention, I could buy normal clothes. I have never been able to buy anything that had a place for breasts. This was a big step for me. Before my surgery date I was very nervous.
The morning of my surgery, I was excited and scared. I walked up the stairs and as soon as I saw the nurses in their outfit, I got real scared and started to cry. My husband said you don't have to do this. For a second I thought I could walk away. I stepped in the room to change and for a while I stood there and looked at myself in the mirror. I thought about my life and if I really wanted to go through with this and I decided if I didn't I would regret it for the rest of my life. I would never know what it was like to have breasts. I have always been a 34 A cup.
The nurses were very nice and I really got the feeling that it was a very routine surgery. I was given some valium and was very relaxed. I made sure that I relaxed and had positive thoughts along with a lot of prayer. When I woke up I was told what size the Dr. went with. Which was 350 cc's. I was little surprised because I thought I would be 280 cc's. That is what is so great about Dr. Bruner. He knows just exactly what size I needed to be. I was very comfortable with my Dr. that whatever implant I had it would fit my body and not be too big for me. He knew I wanted to be snuggly with my children and not be big. He is a very gentle man and humble person. My plastic surgeon is very real. I knew he truly cares about people and does not do what he does just for the money. I really felt like he cared about me as an individual. He understood my fears and knew the look I wanted. We both agreed on every subject I brought up. He spent allot of time with me ad I never felt rushed. The morning of my surgery I asked what size they had down and it said C cup. The nurse said is that still ok. I said a small C cup so she wrote that in.
When I first woke up after surgery, I was shaking a little all over. My recovery was harder than I thought not because I was in a lot of pain. Just because I was so uncomfortable. I didn't sleep for 5 days. I had a lot of anxiety. The more I didn't sleep the worse it got. I felt like I was having a nervous break down. I hated the boobs. Not because they were too big because they were perfect. But it was just the anxiety. I really regretted having the surgery I even called the doctors office to have them taken out.
Crazy you might think, but I really was in BAD shape. I cant explain it all, I just know that I had some strong feelings that made me wish I had never made this decision. I wanted to go back and undo what I had done. My Dr. was out of town and I spoke to his partner. He was so understanding and asked me all kinds of questions. Along with being so surprised because he had never had anyone ever change their mind. He also probably thought I was crazy. He helped to easy my anxiety and spoke so soft it comforted me I could tell he really felt bad for me and wanted to help.
He got me an appointment with my Dr. the day he got in town. My mother in law came over and made me take something to help me sleep. I didn't need the pain meds and was only on Tylenol by day 4. So I took the medicine and slept the day before I saw the Dr. Oh I felt so much better. Everyone said I would see things in a whole new light if I slept and I did. I was willing to work with it and see how I felt in a week.
I can't say enough about my plastic surgeon. He sat with me for an hour and we talked about how I felt. He looked up the medicine I was taking to sleep and made sure I had a prescription. The medicine also helped with the anxiety and I was more relaxed. Family support was great. I could not sit up by myself for about 3 days and could not even open a bottle of pills for 4 days.
You can't use any chest muscles for 5 days. I put small pillows under my arms to hold them up and that felt better lying in bed. I was wrapped for about three days then went in to have the drain tubes out and bandages off. I was wrapped in an ace bandage for about a month. You do feel in shock a little after the surgery. At least I did everyone is different that is why each one of our stories are so important.
My Dr. talked to me about his whole family and shared things you don't just share with anyone. It was very special to me. When a Dr. gets personal with you, you see them as a real person not just a physician. That day and every check up day him feels like my friend and so does all the staff. They all took such great care of me like they would there own child. I feel special to have had them all take care of me. I went through some rough times and I know if someone out there is looking for a doctors office that is well qualified and very capable of doing a awesome job you should definitely go see these great people. They not only will make you look and feel great they can be a new found friend also. You wonder how I am now?
Well it has been 4 months and 10 days and I could not be happier. Except one thing, I WISH I HAD GONE ALITTLE BIGGER!!! Funny huh! I think 400 cc's would be better. I have implants that can go that big. If you don't understand your plastic surgeon will be great at explaining it all but it all depends on the size of the implant that depends on how big you can go. Mine for instances are 400 cc's max. I am at 350 cc's. Beyond that the warranty is no good. I believe my Dr. made me exactly what I asked for. To the size exactly! I just decided I would sill feel comfortable even if I were a little bigger. You never really feel anything inside you and you get so used to the size that it feels normal, like apart of you. I am doing great. Just the first week was hard.
And shopping could never be better. My husband is happy to. He also benefited but is really happy because I am. I don't believe there could be any better plastic surgery office out there. If you have a dream go for it! I know you will be happy you did. Just be prepared so if you run into a tough time you'll know what to do to make it a great experience. So remember get plenty of rest after wards know the swelling will go away, the emotion will come back in line and the pain will go away. For some it is a big decision and a big step. Read a lot of stories everyone is different and do all the research you can. Know what you want and be prepared the best you can.