I am a 27-year-old stay at home mother of two. I have been blessed with two children, a three-year-old boy and a three-month-old girl. My husband and I have been very happily married now for 7 ½ years and everything just seems to be going our way. The reason I wanted you to know these things about me was so you understand that I have a wonderful life, which is very fulfilling. I am not getting a breast augmentation because I am insecure, ugly or feel that I need them to succeed in life. My main reason for wanting a BA is the same as most women and that is because I want to feel my body is incomplete. I'm SICK of padded bras & swimsuits and not being able to wear any fashion designs I want! I want to feel and look sexy for my husband. This may sound frivolous to some people, but not to me and that is all that matters.
I am however still finding it hard to believe that tomorrow I will have breasts. This is just plain old crazy, especially since I've been a AA size my entire life. Being so flat was something I just learned to live with, but never liked. Needless to say, I am very nervous and excited. My husband would tell you I was more like obsessed with the entire thing. Which is true. I can't help it. Ever since I decided to do the procedure it's all I can think about! Making a decision like this was really hard for me partly because I have two small children who need me and all the risks and pain associated with the surgery. I decided for my own self-being I had to get obsessed! I started to read any and all the information I could get my hands on. Thank goodness for the Internet, because I was able to find a vast amount of resources to help me. This also gave me the opportunity to talk to all kinds of women around the world who had had breast implants or were going to just like me. Do you know what I found out from all of these women?? Their biggest complaint about the surgery was that they went to SMALL! I couldn't believe it. There were people on there that had the procedure done twice! Even three times! Amazing.
Well that information brought me to another difficult question I was contemplating. SIZE! I originally went into Doctor Baxter's office boasting that I wanted to be a B cup. (Remember I am coming from an AA, so that seemed sufficient enough to me) I am 5 5' and weight 140 #. (Normally 125, but I have not lost all the baby weight yet!) I decided to go with Mentor, smooth, round 325 cc's filled to 350 cc's. (I am still waffling over this!) That should bring me to a C cup. I am scared this will be too big for me. But then again I do not plan to have this operation again, so this is now where I am leaning.
Butterflies have made a temporary home in my tummy and it is driving me nuts. I have truly eaten us out of house and home waiting for this all to come together. Baby is crying, best go now. 24 hours and counting…..
4:15 p.m. -
Well I am getting more nervous by the minute. Had a call from Dr. Baxter's office making sure I didn't have any unanswered questions and to get me excited, like I needed that! I am so darn excited I can't do anything but eat. EAT, EAT, EAT! I will be dieting shortly after the surgery, ha ha. I am still real nervous about the size, as I really don't want everyone to notice or to call too much attention to my chest. I pretty much think that will be virtuously impossible considering people don't jump from an AA to C overnight. (Well then again I guess they do!) I'm hoping my padded bras might have helped me conceal that a bit. It is also really important for me to make sure my husband likes them, he never once complained about my AA size and I sure in the heck don't want to make him unhappy. I have been praying that it all works out for US. (My husband and myself)
I am going to take a sleeping pill tonight, as that is what the office recommended me to do. That is a must I'm afraid! I have to relax somehow. My time tomorrow is at 11:00. Sure hope I don't starve! I am a big breakfast eater and don't want that to upset my tummy. Guess I'd rather be hungry that sick! Or flat!
I guess I will sign off, as there is really not too much I can add, except to tell you I am scared to death. I will try to write tomorrow morning before I head out. Until then……
I am still up! Nerves are getting the best of me, not to mention the Chinese food I ate for dinner. I took my sleeping pill almost an hour ago and am hoping it will consume me soon. A fun thing I did do tonight was take all of my PADDED A cup bras and put them in a bag which will be heading for the trash! See ya! That was fun. I could not believe how many of those things I actually had! Good riddence!
Really not much else to comment on. Just wanted to share my jitters with you. I can't believe that in the morning I will be off to get my new additions.
Well I am back! Friday, the day of my surgery is all really like a blur to me as I slept most of the day after I arrived home. I do however remember entering the surgery suite and reading some magazines for a short while before my name was called. Boy did that seem like an eternity as my husband and I sat quietly waiting my turn. Soon enough they called me in and I was asked to remove my shirt and bra and put on a big fluffy robe. I was surprised they let me leave my pants and socks on. I had been anticipating having to remove all my clothing and was glad I did not have to. Then I was escorted to another room where I stood and took some pictures. After that the doctor drew some marks on my chest and told me we were already to go and wanted to make sure I didn't have anymore questions. Again my confidence was boosted in the doctor and his staff as they tried to make me feel well informed and comfortable.
I was feeling a bit tipsy from the sleeping pill that I had taken an hour prior to the visit, which was really nice as it made me much more relaxed. Then we went into the surgical room where I laid down on a large bed that was VERY comfortable and a nurse place a nice warm blanket on me. The nurse anesitis was waiting for me there and we chatted while she put in my IV. I have had a few IV's in my life and this was painless! That instantly eased any more of my previous fears and before I even knew it I was off to sleep. I don't even remember being put in my husband's truck, but I do however remember looking out the window at one point to see we were almost at my house.
Later that night my dear friend came over and chatted with me until I finally passed out from the pain medication. The next day (Saturday) was pretty hard for me, as I was real sore and felt helpless with my children. Today I am like a new woman. I fell much better and am able to get around a bunch. Just made my first cup of tea! I might not be able to pick up my infant but she can sit on my lap still and that makes me real happy. My son and my relationship has not been effected at all! He just came into my room and visited me (taking a few crackers with him every time he left!) Well and as for the size I was so worried about, I did go with 350cc's and right now, to tell you the truth they just don't look real big at all! I can't believe it. Guess I could have gone bigger yet! Who would have figured! They are still wrapped in gauze and I have a large support bra on that will be there for a week. That will all come of on Friday and then the true revealing begins! I can't wait. I also know that when I loose these 15-20 pounds of weight from having my baby my new additions will look bigger too.
Actually the pain was much more bearable then I thought it would be. Last night was definitely the worst part because nothing I did seemed to help, but if I would have known how much better I would feel today I never would of complained. So it is all relative I guess. A little pain, or some larger breasts. It is worth it, I guarantee! Can't wait to bra shop! Write more later.
Friday 9:02 1 week post-op
The healing process is coming along now in great strides. I still wake up very stiff in the morning and I am convinced that has something to do with only being able to sleep on my back. That is very frustrating for me since I usually sleep on my side. The past few days I have felt pretty much the same, not quite back to myself yet. My breasts are still very hard and my muscles still ache a lot when I move certain ways.
I was able to wash my hair in the sink on Wednesday and that really made me feel much better. Not being able to take a show has been one of the hardest things for me. I have taken many birdbaths and that has helped as well. Today after my afternoon appointment I get to take a shower and I told my husband I might be up there all night. I feel this has slowed me down mentally because of feeling so grimy. Once I shower I know I will be much closer to be back to normal! I can't wait.
Today's appointment will also allow me to see them for the first time. I am excited to see how they look. I have been feeling a tad depressed since the surgery because I have not been able to see what has been causing me pain and discomfort. So I really feel today will be a huge turning point for me. Hope I am right. Write more soon.
Friday 6:30 PM
Well my appointment was short and sweet. After I arrived at the clinic I was escorted back into a room where a nurse removed my bandages and stitches. I was expecting this to be painful but it was not. Then she let me look at them in the full-length mirror. Well….. they looked good. I had some mild bruises and a bit of swelling. They are sure perky! Then they took another picture of me for the progression photos. Next I made an appointment for two weeks out and my family and I left.
Friday 1:00 Two weeks post-op
I have not written much as there really has not been very many changes. I am not in any pain anymore. Just a bit of aching here and there. Sleeping is getting much easier as I have been slowly trying to lie on my side. They are already softening up a bunch since the surgery. All the swelling appears to be gone, leaving only one small remaining bruise left from the injections.
Next Friday I go in again and hopefully will get the go ahead to wear my own bra and to be able to sleep without the surgical bra. I am truly looking forward to that! I can't wait to shop! My husband even wants to go. (If you knew him you would be impressed, I assure you!) He told me the other day how much better my body looks with my new breast. That makes it all worth it for me.
I have been motivated to get into shape and look forward to being able to work out next week. I new this would get my bottom in gear, and it surely has. I have been dieting since Tuesday in my gallant effort to get the great body I have always dreamed of. In the past I was skinny and even in fairly good shape but it always frustrated me to have a flat chest, therefore not able to reach my goal body. Now nothing is holding me back and I am excited to do it! That was worth the money itself! Well I will write more if I can think of anything worthwhile to add!
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